Christmas Eve, a night should be full of Joy~
2012 Christmas eve, I not sure how many pain should I go through,
Seriously, I feel I am kinda down on this Joyful season.
Please let me cry out loud,
Just that the pain already don't know how to cry d.
Am I a toy or a stock?
Is it so hard to communicate well with me?
Alone sometimes doesn't means a bad things,
I feel alone is worth at this moment,
I really hate those who don't appreciate me.
So I will appreciate myself more.
I want write all the sadness in here,
Then hide my heart in a dark space.
I am not going to give out my heart again.
I want to be strong.
Recently, I don't know what is in my mind.
My life is enjoy enough,
My luck is good.
I got my offer letter which what I want at the 1st place.
I have resigned and serve one month notice right now in the office.
Suddenly I feel a bit upset to leave, but I know I wish to move on.
Just end a sister trip to Penang and next week another trip to Vietnam.
Great December, Great relax time,
Summore Uncle Lim have sponsor me a pair of new heels.
What a great December. :)
But I still miss you, Mr. J. L.
I wish I can share my every single happy moment with you.
12.12.12, I wish I have the courage to call you or whatapps you,
Just to tell you how much I Love You.
I am thinking for the whole day whether should I do so or not.
But I not dare at the end, I am worry I will push you away from me again.
How I wish I can fly over Koh Lippe to accompany you,
I am worry you will be too lonely while alone out there.
Till this moment, I still feel I wish to married you only.
Can't you feel the love from me?
Again, to not disappointed myself, I decide to do nothing.
If this is the last post on 2012,
A simple record of 2012,
I realize how true is my love is.
I realize how hard to earn money.
I now understand how luxury my life is last time.
I know how much my parents love me.
I understand how worry am I by getting old.
I found that it is very hard to fulfill my goal list with my spending behavior.
So, next year I will target myself save money only.
Change my eating habbit and quit gym.
Hopefully I can save RM20k next year.