Emo night

Tomorrow is the last day of January,
Times flies, no more birthday month.
My heart getting confuse,
Should I continue love someone that don't really love me?

Haiz, I so upset with his so cold reaction.
Can I have him forever?

Can't explain why I love him so much.

Pre-birthday Celebration

Yesterday I have a very great pre-birthday celebration,
Just have a simple dinner and 6pintsof KilKenny,
I am just melted by all this simple things,
Because of him. J.L.

My dream come true,
Although the celebration not at my exact date,
Don't have fancy birthday present or flower.
I am still appreciate a lot.
Nobody knows when will be the last day of us.
So I am really appreciate every single second with him.
Even though I'm very tired, I'm still don't want to close my eyes.

And Yes, Finally I have a photo with him.
Touching, I know him for 4years but I got no photo with him before.
At first, he really don't want take photo with me.
But my tears just come out when he reject me.
And so, we have a very only photo. Only one.

How can I not love you? You just took away my heart so easily. <3 p="p">

Really not good to let people know who is him,
And I have promise I won't post on Facebook.
I Love You, J.L. <3 p="p">I just wish you live happier and dream come true.

Worry

3 more days, the answer will be clear right?
I am just too worry I will sad again.
My tear why still can drop for him?

Again, I think too much. :(

我写我的2013的期待

新的一年，
新的工作，
我希望有新的生活，
再一次写了2013年该做的事情，
我发现我要做的事情变少了。
想了一天也只有八件事情而已。

To do list in 2013,
1. I want save 10k in bank.
2. I want get a diving license.
3. Travel in Taiwan at September 2013.
4. Maintain my body weight to 52kg.
6.Buy a Prada wallet.
7. Pay off the debt of Australia trip(2011), RM5500.
8. Buy a branded stuff to my parents at their birthday.

最没有难度的应该是3，机票已经买好了。希望我至少可以完成以上5样。去年写了十样，只完成了1样，还蛮失败的。

可以发现爱情已不再是我新一年追求的一环了。可能经历了这一年的挫败，我不想只是人家的寂寞工具了。难过的事情我已不想再提，我希望我能够更专心在我的事业里。有了钱，要什么应该也不难了。

对他，开始出现灰心的感觉。不知道他会不会再找我。有时我会想，我这么爱他，他可不可以爱我一下？J.L. 会不会又是我2013年重要人物呢？