久违的你

久违的我，
终于回到来这里，
虽然每次都是因为不开心才会写一大堆东西。

但原来这里是属于我的避风港，
我想把这一份伤心记录起来。
每个爱我的人都不愿意再一次见到我伤心。
偏偏我选择了这条路，
是我自己要还是我们都要?
我花心吗？
刚认识我的人会觉得我花心得很，
换了一个又一个的伴，
却不愿意停下来。
认识我很久的朋友，
会知道我忠心地让他们想把死我，
当我换的时候，所有的不在意，
只因为住在我心里的其实都是同样的人，
我尝试爱别人。
那又怎样，他们都没有珍惜过我的爱。

为何偏偏我差不多成功放弃的时候，
你又回来我的身边，
还是你让我有最终的告别？
我用了八个月的时间开始忘了你，
你只用一天的时间让我忘了当初如何忘了你。

那天，我很想问你，
可不可以就爱我这一次？
你知道我爱你还是你从来不知道？
你在等我开口？
你不愿放开我，还是我不愿放开你？
也许就这样不管不管，我们就这样不再有任何关系。

塔罗牌说我今年会遇到一个懂我的人，
那个人会是你吗？
这一次你会留下来吗？

朋友都劝我move on，
你是不可能留下来的。
我该相信奇迹吗？

在爱情里我总是很傻。
我还是默默地希望，
这一次会不一样。

Random post

After 1 and the half month,
I still not yet figure out should I buy a monitor or buy a new laptop.
So, now I got no laptop to use.
I have to use my company laptop at the moment,
And I less and less online at home because I'm lazy to take out my laptop.
I seriously don't know why it has become a troublesm for me,
Just take out the laptop and I can online at night.
I am just lazy and give up the life online at night.

So, this coming week,
It is a new start of my life.
I have join gym.
I start exercise everyday.
I think is a must to change in my life.
I want to look better and have something to do besides working.

Well, I still care.
I just realize I can't let go my past.
Even I have start a new life.

Why I can't ignore him?
I really don't know why.
I am too lonely? or I too miss him and finally he is single again.
It make me excited or afraid?

No more expectation,
This is the things i told myself.
Just go gym, make myself busy and look better with the result of hard work.
Then someone will realize my inner pretty.

Earn more money to pamper myself,
I want to look great.
That all I wish. <3

My Mr. Right, please let me be your Ms Right.

Well, I wish Ryan look for me, I am interest to know him more.
He is cute and attractive.
However, he didn't reply my msg and make me feel hopeless.
Alright, game rules is still rules we can't ignore.