I'm back from Australia already 1week plus.
The feeling is really so weird.
I'm still thinking,
Why end up I'm not study there but just travel?
Well, I really waste a lot of time to figure out what I want.
I know, I din put enough effort to achieve my goals.
That why, I feel myself so useless.
Asking myself, 21years old and what I have been doing so far?
As a student, I do all kind of nonsense.
As a girl, I din appreciate what I have and do all kind of stuff to hurt myself.
Well, the whole trip to melbourne and Sydney was amazing.
I really feel happy and enjoy myself every moment.
At the same time, I really think a lot of questions about my past and future.
1st, I realize my english no improve but getting worst.
2nd, I dun think my chinese is good neither.
3rd, I'm so useless as I don't know so many things.
4th, My result really so worst, I don't think I able to get a good job in the future.
There is really no different with those SPM graduate.
5th, My health problem is getting serious, based on what my friend say, I breathe too fast means my heart is not healthy.
6th, I think I like someone but I feel afraid that if he found out, we might no longer friend.
7th, I'm nobody and useless and too depends on others.
I need to change. So from tomorrow, I will start draw myself a new timetable,
I need a discipline life, healthy life, I need to be somebody.
And from now on, I will blog in english to practice more on my english.
I will read more and less online to search a new exit for next year.
And yes! I got my overload successfully so possible graduate end of this year!
Thank god! I know I need to appreciate a lot!
