Let time move me on~

Why add me back in Facebook look not nice?
I very sad with the answer that you give,
I cannot understand.

I already give you know the truth,
You believe but you don't want accept me back.

Let time bring me to the better future.

My world has collapse

I feel I have lost you totally.
I am really not willing to lost you.
If time can go back,
I swear I won't give others my fb password.
I am regret.

I miss you,
And now I can't even silently see what are you doing?
Do you know how sad am I?

Nobody can understand,
I know I let go,
But I know I will wait,
Now I can't even wait.
No more. It is the end of the story.

Miracle didn't happen.
I already try my best,
I want to change.
Every single of your words is now non stop remind me,
How worst am I.

I know my world inside my heart is totally collapse.
I know my dream have gone,
I really try so hard to grab him back.
I really so miss him.

He come to my dream everynight,
I just wish to be his friend,
Now no more.

But I know I have to act strong,
I have to act normal,
I only can hide my sadness and the feeling to you.

Again, I can feel the pain of losing a fren and a guy I care.
Why I need to go through this?
When I am 18, I lost a friend, Mr. A.
Now I lost again, a friend, Mr. J.

I need Miracle

Miracle~ I need Miracle.
Everything going to end soon?

Happy 1 year anniversary

Oh Yeah~
Today is the 1 year anniversary I have been cheated by him,
Last year today 26 of July, 2011.
Is our 1st date, my 1st date with Mr.J.
That time I never thought I will deeply fall in love with him.

I never tot I got the chance to be with him today,
Thanks God, I love you.
I will appreciate every single moment with him,
Because I know possibility to be last is unexpected.
I still believe Miracle will happen sometimes.

Continue dreaming one day he will never leave me and confirm me.

Special day to remember

I miss the moment of blogging with chinese words.
I miss my laptop but it already spoilt.
I miss the moment of back to Uni last year.
Every year this day sure something memorable happen.

Today I am sure nothing going to happen.
Because I didn't make things happen.

How I wish, tomorrow you will tell me,
You remember it.
Our 1st dating, is 26 of July 2011.
Watching Captain American at TGV.
My 1st time watch movie with Couple seat ticket.
And so far, it is the last time I sit at Couple seat till now.

How I wish back to the past,
I can change my decision on this day.
The most memorable decision I have made.
N I now fall in love with you till now.
1 year, i am still your friend, what a failure woman I am.

Life that not easy

Recently I still not yet solve the problem of my laptop,
Well, financial issue again, not easy want to spend that money.
Just worry, I spend already, i got no spare money for emergency.

Yesterday I have this thinking,
If after 3 years I am still the same like now,
I am just going to back Melaka, hide myself at home.
I just need 1 day 2 meals, I think that is not an issue for my parents.
Just a taught to make myself have awareness of Life.

I am thinking, why I live till somehow sound like useless that kind.
Maybe because I am still not financial independent yet.
That why, I should learn to pay everything by myself.
What is my problem?
I really can't see my problem,
Maybe it is just a down moment.
I am Emo Queen~That why~

Learn to be patient,
Don't take it so hard of the words from others,
If it is yours, God will give you an opportunity to grab it.
Believe, Just need to have passion and believe in your life.

Tomorrow will be better,
Just solve the current issue 1st.

Better lifestyle

Miracle didn't happen.
But I changed,
I totally feel that I need a change,
I cannot live like that anymore.

That's not the life I want,
so I know if I want the life I want,
I need to change.
I'm not sure change could let me be someone I want to be or not.

I willing to try.
Just want to be better.