2011年7月29日星期五

I miss him

Recently I'm so busy.
Busy with my new semester,
Busy with my last holiday,
Busy with my new friendship,
Busy with my new life.

This is a good start,
But I'm not sure will it become worst at the end?

I miss him like crazy,
but I can't look for him,
I need to control my feeling towards him,
Because friend for 4years,
shouldn't spoil the friendship.

But crazily miss him so much.
Look at his photo so many times.

Where is my australia trip post,
hopefully I will write it soon.

2011年7月25日星期一

New!

I'm back from Australia already 1week plus.
The feeling is really so weird.
I'm still thinking,
Why end up I'm not study there but just travel?
Well, I really waste a lot of time to figure out what I want.
I know, I din put enough effort to achieve my goals.
That why, I feel myself so useless.
Asking myself, 21years old and what I have been doing so far?
As a student, I do all kind of nonsense.
As a girl, I din appreciate what I have and do all kind of stuff to hurt myself.

Well, the whole trip to melbourne and Sydney was amazing.
I really feel happy and enjoy myself every moment.
At the same time, I really think a lot of questions about my past and future.
1st, I realize my english no improve but getting worst.
2nd, I dun think my chinese is good neither.
3rd, I'm so useless as I don't know so many things.
4th, My result really so worst, I don't think I able to get a good job in the future.
There is really no different with those SPM graduate.
5th, My health problem is getting serious, based on what my friend say, I breathe too fast means my heart is not healthy.
6th, I think I like someone but I feel afraid that if he found out, we might no longer friend.
7th, I'm nobody and useless and too depends on others.

I need to change. So from tomorrow, I will start draw myself a new timetable,
I need a discipline life, healthy life, I need to be somebody.
And from now on, I will blog in english to practice more on my english.
I will read more and less online to search a new exit for next year.

And yes! I got my overload successfully so possible graduate end of this year!
Thank god! I know I need to appreciate a lot!